When I meet someone new sometimes I want them to know that my brain functions a little different from normal, in this day and age, you could almost say who’s doesn’t. But for me it’s a little more serious and it affects my life a little more.
A good friend was telling me about the following similar phenomenon that I had also encountered. After I tell a person about some mental health symptoms I have, both good and bad, it’s so nice to then be asked about my psychology degree, or my years working in organic restaurants, or about the books I have published. I suppose this shows us that we are recognized for the intelligence we have and not just the difficulties we face. I am happy to say that many people have done this with me. It is so pleasing to have a complex conversations about opinions, perspectives and planning for the future.
When I meet someone new sometimes it’s like I have to show the pretend scar that I carry around with me. This thing that if they really new about it they might choose not to be friends. This is embarrassing and although I’ve tried to get passed it, I still feel hurt by the mental health label I seem to wear. It is especially frustrating because there was a time when I thought it was more like a gift that people would admire. Wow a girl who talks to trees. What kind of environmentally philosophical messages would she hear? Well wasn’t I surprised to hear how ashamed and afraid a lot of people are of hearing things…. hey it’s just like having a dream in the daytime, it’s not so strange.
I used to think that people who hear things were the balance for people with depression. If one told the other their strange stories and exuberant messages then the depression might lift and the person who heard things would have a much-needed audience. And then there is the concept that mental health differences are indeed meant to entertain I mean look what the movie industry has succeeded in doing with magical thinking. At the same time we all like to be taken seriously. I mean we all have value as human beings for our thoughts and just for being who we are.
So where have I come to? I think I will continue to try to paint better pictures of hearing things when people are willing to listen to me. There are many other things though, that capture my attention, and I hope to continue studying music and practicing good communication skills and learning about other interesting education opportunities.
Posted on August 21, 2012, in Balance, Depression, anger and negativity, Emotions, Happiness, Self Esteem and Positivity, mental health, New Age Psychology, Relationships and tagged empowerment, identity, mental health, positive thinking, stigma. Bookmark the permalink. Leave a comment.